Dec 8, 2010

My Nutso Moment

So, here is goes.  This blog is suppose to be one that helps others not feel alone, one where we can relate to one another, one that gives a face to RAD.  So, I was venting via email to Andrea (my bloggy partner) just now and I realized that this is the stuff that needs put out there.  This is the kind of thing that we RAD parents can all relate to and if I don't share it transparently  why would anyone else?  

So here it goes...


My clown is escalating again. 
I am stressed about it. 
I am having a pity party about it.  


 There have been a lot of issues at school lately. 



We had an appointment this week with the Geneticist (because he is lucky enough to have more than one diagnosis of course...YIPPEE).  That appointment did not go well for Clown.  



We also had an appointment with the pediatrician this week that did not go well. 



Then to top it off we had a dentist appointment and....

YEP...

You guessed it...
MORE BAD NEWS...


So I just sat there and cried in the office wondering is there EVER a place that this little boy can go without bad news?  
Is there ever a place where his mama can go without hearing more bad news?  


Will the day come that we go somewhere, anywhere, and hear a report that says "All is well. We will see you back next year."?
And if that day never comes for this little boy and this particular mama will we both be ok?

I am guessing that the answer is, "Yes"...

But it's just a guess.  

Do you have those days?  


Do you have those moments when, even though you are in a dentist office and received news that pales in comparison to the rest of the news you have gotten that week, you cry and make the people at the office think you are a nut for crying because your child needs two fillings?
But there I sat...my face in my hands, seemingly crying because my son needed two fillings.  
Once again proving that RAD parents truly are nutso!!!
YOU'RE WELCOME!

7 comments:

~The Bargain Babe from *Zucchini Summer Blog* said...

We also see Rick. He gave me the link to your blog. After I sat in his office and talked about how judgemental other people are and how it is so lonely.

Thanks for making the blog.

And yes, I have times when "small" things (like your dentist visit) tip me over the edge and I look like a fool in public.

This summer, I was "that" mom in Target yelling to her 7 yr old "For the love of God, SHUT UP!"

Unknown said...

Thanks Bargain Babe!
I'm SO glad you joined us here....there is NO NEED for us RAD parents to feel alone!! :)
There are enough of us out there that we can all have someone who can say, "I get it".
So, if you need someone to say, "I GET IT" and to not judge you...WE ARE HERE!!

~The Bargain Babe from *Zucchini Summer Blog* said...

Thank you for the warm welcome.

I just got done spending 20 minutes safe holding our 7 yr old. Geeze louise, what a calorie burning exercise that was! Aye aye aye.

As I struggled to maintain control in the beginning of the hold, I found myself praying "God give me the strength to do this." My kid is STRONG. But I was stronger. :) Phew.

Hope you all are having a good (or better than usual) week!

Unknown said...

You are so very welcome.
I am glad that you prevailed over your strong little one. How old is your little one?! :)
We are having a good week...praise the LORD!!
Two days of school and no bad reports and a trip to a friends to play outside this afternoon for a whole 40 minutes and no blowups!!! Yippee!!!!
And he is working on chores right now as I type...I better go knock on wood!

nikmom123 said...

I did the exact same thing 6 months ago at the dentists office. EXACTLY the same thing.

Unknown said...

nikmom123, WELCOME!! And thanks so much for just letting me know I am not alone!! UGH! If only we had been there on the same day...what a mess!
Anyway, WELCOME, we are SO glad to have you!

Unknown said...

ib,
I am so glad you made this blog. It is the only one I follow even though lots of people make them. I miss you at SOCC. So glad to be in contact again!
Nikki P
DJ- 6 aggressive clingy
Jocyln-8 perfectionistic withdrawn
Kasey 9 bio